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!! Warning for language and general emo-ness !!


I just... really needed to say that. I really hope some of you, at least, will read this and... I don't know, lend me a little support or something? I'm not saying it because I want the attention, I'm saying it because I needed to SAY it to SOMEONE, and I don't want to burden my IRL friends with it, because that's exactly what he's doing and the one person I want to trust with this, I can't, because I'm scared they'll take his side again

If you've read this, I think it kind of explains itself, so I'm not going to elaborate, but...

I’d just like to say to anyone who’s ever put in this position – if the bad outweighs the good, and you’re only hurting to be in the relationship… LEAVE. Fuck “right” and “wrong”. You’re human, and humans are selfish by nature. If you’re so worried about hurting the other person, it’s even more reason to JUST BE SELFISH – you care about the person, and you don’t want to hurt them, but if you’re hurting yourself by making them happy… it’s not worth it.

I was serious about that last point, if anyone read it. I’ve always considered myself a fairly worthless person, and I guess in some ways I didn’t consider my happiness worth more than someone else’s, but he made me see that I DO need to make myself happy. I’m never going to walk all over someone for my own happiness, but I do realise now that I should be as happy as I can without hurting anyone consciously.


Yeah, uh... I'm not really thinking properly at the moment, so forgive the choppiness and bad explanations.



You know what, I could just use some hugs.

Also, I'm sorry that my first deviation in a while is so... "emo" or whatever, but I... yeah. Sorry.
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SegaRocker21 Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
I thought of my friend when I read this, and I wanna show it to her someday. Her boyfriend is a jerk that left her due to supposedly not being able to deal with her family. I really hate him, but what I hate more is that she STILL feels like she loves him! After everything he did! Sorry I ranted, just needed to get that out.
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soralover1995 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
You're a strong person. I know that this was put up some time ago, but reading it for the first time... You are now one of the people I look up to. Not only as an amazing artist, but as someone who is willing to speak their mind, and not let other people walk over them. I hope I can be as strong as you, when the right moment comes along, for me.

:iconsobeautifulplz:

And also... :iconhugplz:
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taffee23 Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2012
God, I know the feeling...sort of. My brother has been with this chick that caused him cancer(after hearing that she punched him in the stomach), broke his and caused a lot of emotional and physical pain. First he's saying she makes him happy then leaves her and says he happy and gets back with and keeps telling us she makes him happy. Do you see the problem? Everyone does. But he doesn't. I hope everything goes well for you! And you are so right on, you gotta be able to be love yourself more than anyone else, it really helps(went through that from being bullied). And.... :hug:
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Risa213 Featured By Owner May 24, 2012  Student General Artist
strong.. I love it! C:
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onedotsonly2 Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
revenge is a bitch, YOU GO GIRL!!!! :fork:
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MorganeXD Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
Agree... Been there....
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MidnightCat123 Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
I agree.
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CrazyLeslie Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
*hug* been here felt that. Stay strong starshine!
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Zelphyr117 Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Who's the bastard that hurt you?
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YippieYaYeeh Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:salute: :/
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Cameron7788 Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2011
-hugglez- :<
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TigerCloudz Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
i especially appreaciate and respect the amount of courage you dedicated in writing this letter. i think it helps to realize once in awhile the honest truth about a human being, and that your person comes first. You got one life to live, and honestly nobody in this world has the time to really take someone else's on their shoulders. you deserve a million hugs for this (: and i'm happy this asshole helped you realize this important matter, even if unfortunatly you had to suffer in the process.
:hug: life goes on, if this person treated you as if you weren't worth his time, then neither should you!
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sniickers Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2010
:hug: I'm sorry for not replying earlier -- I thought I had until I stumbled across this in my comments...

And thank you... It did hurt at the time, and sometimes it still makes me angry when I start thinking that maybe I shouldn't have done what I did -- but then I remember that he had to lie to make me the bad guy, and all I did was tell the truth, and remember that he's done this MULTIPLE times. I'm glad it happened, if only because it helped me realise some things.

<3 One life to live, so let's live it well, yeah? :)
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TigerCloudz Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
i completely agree with you! one life to live, there's just no time to live someone else's at the same time (:
well i'm happy you came out stronger out of the experience, but lets just hope it never happens again. though sadly we both know that there are many assholes out there just waiting to ruin a life. you just gotta keep your head out of the water and keep swimming through the ocean of life (:
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2nitewepartay Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2010
:hug: I want to send this to a special someone in my life, too. I'm hoping he'll see it in my favorites. XD
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sniickers Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2010
:hug: Ah, sweetheart :( If he's been an asshole, i hope he sees it too -- and gets the message! I hope it ends better for you than for me.

Is he your boyfriend, or just a friend? (The guy i was talking to/about here was just a friend)
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2nitewepartay Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2010
Boyfriend. We were friends, and then we broke up, but now he's just a friend. I'm really mad at him, and I was heartbroken for weeks because he was being so mean. I don't even want to know him anymore, even though he wants to geth back together with me. :(
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AnnutheCatGirl Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2010  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
I want to say that in this one guys face soooo badly...
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sniickers Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2010
I know the feeling. This situation went from guilt to anger, to peace with it, then I found out some more stuff that I hadn't known before and then I wanted to go tell him he was a lying asshole -- again, with the anger.

:hug: Sorry that you've got an asshole guy pissing you off :/ I hope things've gotten better since you posted this comment.

Sorry for not replying sooner. I've been kinda MIA...
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AnnutheCatGirl Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2010  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
*glomps* Thankies! :3
Yeah, we've been better off now, but I still love to hate him xD
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Samelia Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2009
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK YES.
I could have written this, I love you. You're officially my new best friend, may I claim you and call you my Squishy?
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sniickers Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2009
:hug: If you could've written this too, I'm sorry -- you have my sympathies and my empathy :( People like this are assholes...

:lmao: Okay, you can call me Squishy :P
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Samelia Featured By Owner Dec 26, 2009
I'm not sorry, it made me stronger- it should make you stronger, too, to live without such horrid in your life. Let's live, let's forget, let's be that bastard's regrets! : D!!

SQUISHY.
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sniickers Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2009
Haha, very true :) I definitely am stronger for it -- but I'm still sorry you had to go through the awful to get the good. Still, such is life...
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Samelia Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2009
Being stronger is better, very better!
Ah, I'm fine with it. Much better now, of course. Life is life, and what is life without living things?
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NaruWolfluver8 Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2009
:hug:
:highfive: Right!
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sniickers Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2009
:hug:
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doggie2271 Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2009  Student General Artist
AWW! :iconhugplz:
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sniickers Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2009
:hug: Thank you
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doggie2271 Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2009  Student General Artist
welcome
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Kidf90 Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2009
*hugs* ):
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sniickers Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2009
*hugs back* Thank you <3
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Kidf90 Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2009
It'll be okay.. whatevah it was XP
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Roxannax Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2009  Student General Artist
I would comfort you, but by reading all that. You seem like a strong woman.
Those last 5 words are something all girls need to realise no matter where they are.^^
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sniickers Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2009
:) Thank you <3 And yeah, I agree. People need to realise that. I'm kind of sad that it took this for me to realise :/
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Roxannax Featured By Owner Aug 27, 2009  Student General Artist
I don't think so^^
I'm just an odd one. A Sagittarius and a rat. I observe quietly and learn from others first.
That way it's easier to see who's in the wrong if I don't look at it my way... >.< Hard to explain. :/

I don't act like a 12 year old do I...
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sniickers Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2009
Haha! Ooh, Saggitarius, eh? What month? And a rat, awesome <3 I'm a Leo and bird :3

I understand what you mean :) I tend to do that too.

And I dunno XD I've met a few (very few) twelve year olds a little like you :3
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Roxannax Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2009  Student General Artist
Lol December like 5 days before Christmas. So I'm an early presi to the world. :p


Sometimes I don't want to be rat, like when i first heard it I was all 'WHY CAN'T I BE A LOVABLE BUNNY". But us rats and money-makers, it's hard to get info out of us... but we always seem to get others to talk. ^^
No secret hides from me.
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sniickers Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2009
XD Oh wow. Awesome. Can I call you Chrissie? :lmao: (Also, is your name your actual name? Because that would be awesome -- I have a character called Roxanna XD)

Psshaw. I like rats :3 And mice, they're adorable <3 Eh. Rabbits are cute, but... BUNNEHS ARE EVIL. Seriously >_<
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Roxannax Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2009  Student General Artist
Lol, nah... Roxanna was what I first named one of my charcters... but now i'm not sure what she's called anymore. 0.o My excuse was in order not to be tracked down she'll use a certain name depending on where she is...

The name Roxanna wouldn't suit me ¬.¬ But I'm perfectly happy with my name^.^. Except for this one time a couple years ago. A boy finally admits defeat to the supreme me! Then asks my name... then laughs cause it's not tough for me at all. I don't even think it was a matter of tough, just seemed too nice.

I'm guessing you have a past with bunnies...
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Jigsaw-Chan Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
That takes a lot of courage to openly admit that to al of dA

I APPLAUD YOU!

:3 Im glad it worked out
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sniickers Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2009
:hug: Thank you :) <3
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Jigsaw-Chan Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
^^ You are a very strong woman, dont let anyone tell you otherwise
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sniickers Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2009
:tighthug: Thank you <33 ^_^
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Jigsaw-Chan Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
XDD No problem ^^

Women like us need to stick together
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A-Sad-Pandas-Poptart Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2009  Student Traditional Artist
I hope everythings worked out. I'm not really good for advice about this kinda of stuff.... but you did help me a little. ^^
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sniickers Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2009
I/It helped you? *blink* Well, I'm glad then :) And it's okay <3 Thank you for reading, even if you can't think of what to say :hug:
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A-Sad-Pandas-Poptart Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2009  Student Traditional Artist
n.n
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maplethebully Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug:
Good you didn't keep it bottled up, that what rocks about art/writing, you can express your feelings and make them look cool.
I've never been a sitution excatly like that, but I know what it's like when you can't trust someone because you're afraid they'll take the wrong side instead. It's horrile to feel alone like that, but if nothing else you have lots of people to support you. It may be in human nature to be shelfish, but it's also in human nature to support one another and spread kindness, even if it's sometimes hard to find.
Here have a some...um....I don't know what they are but they're cute.
:blackice: :nieman: :liquify: :dygel:
I'd be my luck for them to be some weird evil man-eating something or other....
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sniickers Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2009
:hug:

I know, eh? Art/Writing is an awesome way to vent your feelings :D I tend to draw when I'm feeling down XD

Yeah... It's a horrible feeling. I feel like I've kind of... lost this friend (the one I want to talk to, but can't because I'm worried she'll take his side) a little :/ And I agree with you -- humans are naturally selfish (by the way, thanks, you made me giggle -- you typed "shelfish"), but we're also pretty good at supporting each other when it comes down to it.

<33 Those things are adorable XD I've got no idea what they are, but they're cute. I've actually been wondering what they are... *prods them curiously*

:hug: Thank you, Maple :)
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